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Aug 27, 2006
on raul gonzales

Sec. Raul Gonzales of the Dept. of Justice calling UP as a home for breeding "destabilizers" and "naked runners" just because you are a "well-behaved" student from another university.

what are you talking about?

destabilize
  1. To upset the stability or smooth functioning of: a policy that threatens to destabilize the economy; a new weapon that threatens to destabilize nuclear deterrence.
  2. To undermine the power of (a government or leader) by subversive or terrorist acts.
obviously, this is not what we UPians are up to.

1. smooth functioning? never had the philippines undergone smooth functioning. tho there might be times of peace, our country always face problems of different sorts. it just so happens that most of the times, its the government to blame. yes. they are doing their jobs. but should there always be under the tables negotiations? corruptions here and there? POLITICAL KILLINGS?

2. we are not after destabiling the economy. mind you mr secretary that most of us, UPians, no matter how tempting it is are planning to stay here in the philippines. work and serve our country. the country who paid for our education for at least four years. maybe you are just referring to those who are now seated besides you, below you, with you and ABOVE you. if you see the economy dwindling and staggering, don't look our way. you (with your COHORTS) hold the state of the economy in your hands. don't you dare say we do YOUR diry work.

3. yes. in fact. we do unermine the government. not for everything it does. but for all the wrongdoings they start or the wrongs they are allowing to happen. washing hands for killing journalists, students, mass leaders? if what you say is true, why don't this stop? the ones who could stop this insanity is the government. if it is not you who is guilty for all these heniuos crimes, why can't the people feel any movement from you? why is nothing being done about this?

naked runners?

do you even know why alpha phi omega runs every year?

do you even know what the oblation is all about?

obviously, you dont. did you know that not only UP-APO runs during the oblation run but also fraternity brothers from other universities and colleges including you very own alma mater?

you brag about yourself being the presidents bulldog.

funny tho.. it only shows your own stupidity. blind loyalty is for the weak. blind loyalty is for the opportunist. blind loyalty is for those who truly can not understand.

if you really care for anything besides your ass.. do something SMART for a change. ayt?

Posted at 05:51 am by nbaguas
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rockin on heaven's door

the very first time i rocked and rolled.

played lead and bass.

kat and kareen on vocals

jay on bass

keg on rhythm

and super jie on drums



sector conference of cfc-yfc south a.

came in short

lost but had fun

rock on for Jesus Christ

ganch
est1986


Posted at 04:01 am by nbaguas
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Aug 16, 2006
the invincinble

    there i was, thinking about myself. how great i am. how wonderful i've become. how powerful i got. smart is just an understatement. intelligent is merely putting it gently. my brain feels like full of gray matter. no work is left undone. none left unfinished. everything in sheer excellence.

    everything about myself was okay. about me. about me. i mind not the things around me. thinking that im stone cold. my heart iced by time, sharpened by experience. tears fall not on my cheeks. everything went my way.

    then it hit me. there was no MY way. its not MY life. its not MY heart. neither my family. my friends. my love ones.
   
    it hit me hard.

   a story was once told to me. we, men, are like dolls made of clay. God crushes us and breaks away flaws for us to be polished. for us to be perfect in His eyes.

    i was hurt. my life crushed. 8 units failed. parents almost separated. aunt died. finances are down. life's a mess. a 180' turn from Him. blaming Him. cursing Him for all mg angst. for all my hardships.

    WHY?!

    i thought i could make it on my own. i thought my plans would transpire. i thought everything was going well. well i thought wrong.

    i learned how to SURRENDER. my love. my life. my everything. and upon giving everything up i gained everything. my heart leaps for joy everytime i remember. my God is with me. He is everywhere. God is enough. nothing else would ever be. i am satisfied. i found my peace.

    i truly felt Him in me. that day. that day i thought i found Him. unknowingly that all this time He was just with me. my eyes were closed. i opened them. i found Him. and now i close my eyes once again. once again in full embrace. in full trust. in love.



    in Him i found myself. and in Him i found my goal. my purpose. that others see Him in me as well. His light be mine. and me channel His unconditional love for all. an impossible mission for me. not for Him. not for my Lord. not for our Lord.

~ganch~
  est 1986

Posted at 07:58 am by nbaguas
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rationale of a screwed mind

    feel green today. driven towards insanity. exam after exam. powered by ions and caffeine. carbo loading for short. my head hurts. my body is deprived of sleep. gluconeogenesis is up. glycolysis is down. brain almost dead.

    something in me pushes me on. my great want to excel. dont know where it comes from. i just want to. i want to prove something to those around me. but everything is a blur. wrongs goals huh?! well i thought this was all for His greater glory. well it should be. it is. must not forget what these are for. all for Him. for a better me. for a better future. fame is nothing. money is evil. pride would only bring me down.

    have an exam on friday. all about analytical chem. pH determination. colorimetry. UV spectrometry. refractometry. know i can. must top this. this is my forte. this is my field. this is me. but must not forget. for my betterment. for His greater glory. apologies for my schizo sense. dont know what to say. even if i do, finding it hard how to express it. ketone bodies are lingering my blood brain barrier. help. ketoacidosis. fatty deposits around my body. my worst ever weight. level one obesity. must lose weight. must look good again.

    miss my high school friends. quoting lourds "we miss them or we just miss the people we can not be with". miss everyone.

    im frustrated with myself right now. so disfunctional. am trying. really am. exams hinder me to do things that need attention. lots of it. moving on. moving on.

    missing a lot on life. gaining a lot to. or so i think. in a world outcasted from happiness. outcasted from society. not to worry. reap the rewards of the academe soon. a degree second to none. a life of leisure. a life of love. a life of service.

    someday.

    somehow.

    Christ with us all.


    ~ganch~
      est 1986

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